SORRY

I'm SUPER sorry but I won't be posting any news TODAY!!! I am too upset to write what happened to me so I will blog it TOMORROW!!!

I Can't BELIEVE It!?!?!?

OMG!!! YOU'LL NEVER GUESS WHAT HAPPENED!!!!!!?????!!!!But first I apologize for the late entry today, but at least I didn't forget!! Anways, back to what I was saying, I told you guys about the friday night party, righjt??? Well OMG I HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!!!! Okay well today I was Talking to my biggest crush since like FOREVER!! And I wasn't to sure he MEANT what he said, but today when we were talking about our chem lab, he totally grabbed me by the neck, made me fall down on the couch, and started MAKING OUT with me!!! It was soo steamy!!! It actually LASTED like TWO WHOLE HOURS!!! He then said that he NEVER wants to LOSE me and that he's been thinking of asking me out since grade seven, but never had the guts!!! we are now in grade twelve!!! He told me that HE LOVES ME!!! And he told me that he was still a virgin becaue he's been waiting for me, because to him making love is truly MAKING LOVE!!!!! He then asked me if I would be his GIRLFRIEND and never leave him no matter what happens.......I said YES!!!!!!! OMG!! I just can't believe it, I have the LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!!! Now all I can hope for is that we actually do stay together and i know it's corny and pathetic to say this at my age but, I LOVE HIM and I REALLLLY want to MARRY HIM!!!! I LOVE HIMMMMMMMM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!! And if you don't like that then SCREW YOU!!!! but not him because he's mine, bitches!!!

Very First...

Today is the first day I start blogging! I AM VERY EXCITED!! Anyways, my frineds have been blogging for quite some time now, so I decided to do my own blog! I've always known I had alot of DRAMA in my LIFE!! I am only going to do one blog a day, unless it has nothing to do with my day=P ANYWAYS!!!! I am only 17 YEARS OlD!! I love being 17!! Last night I went to a party and it was FUN as HELL!!! I LOVE to DRINK!! I'm not big on drugs though!! Anyways, I'm the type of person that people would call the loner/not that pretty/pathetic person...But I have my group of friends. This one guy in my group, I REALLY LOVE HIM. It's not even funny how much I LOVE HIM!!! So at the party everyone was drinking and after a while he was MAJORLY drunk!! Now my friendship with him is that we are good friends and have been since we were little!!! So as you guessed it, he has NO IDEA that I LOVE HIM!!! So after a while I went to the bathroom, when I got out he was right at the door!!!I WAS SHOCKED!!! WHY? Because he pushed me into the bathroom again and shut the door behind him!!! When I tried to leave he grabbed my arm, and turned me around then made out with me!!!! I WAS IN HEAVEN!!! but I couldn't let it continue, because we're friends and like he was drunk!! Plus I thought it was a joke because he's a hot jock and I'm a fat pathetic loser. Now I'm always down for doing that type of STUFF!! But when he asked me...I HESITATED!!! Then said yes, so he pulled down his pants and then he pushed me down to my knees!!! He was being to aggressive for me!!! I WANTED TO HURT HIM!! he hurt me pushing me down but then when I tried to get back up he said PLEASE!! so I did!!! Then he grabbed me , and pulled me up!! I HATE when people are AGGRESSIVE!!!While I was brushing my teeth, he was getting dressed!! We went back into the main room to continue the party, only to find no one else there. Considering it was his place and I was too drunk to drive home, I slept over. We both fell asleep on the couch, cuddling. This MORNING!!! was weird because he remembered what he did and so do I. He ignored it all morning until I was about to leave. He then took me and KISSED ME!!! It was like the MOVIES!!! My leg went up and it was AMAZING!!! He then told me that he LOVES ME!!!! I WAS SHOCKED!!!!!!!!!!!I then left with a huge ass smile in my face and I was on cluod nine but now I'm thinking was it only the hangover talking, or was he truly saying it!!! and not only that, I don't know whether I stilll LOVE him as MUCH as I did all because he might be TOO AGGRESSIVE with me!!! I'm SOOOOOOOO CONFUSED!!!! Any advice would be nice!!!!OH YA by the way just to let you guys know that that was my FIRST blow job or hand job, EVER!!!!!